I don’t know if it’s a real person or AI on the other end of the Crisis Text Line, but these words of support (listed below) resonated with me when I felt vulnerable, powerless, and ignored by the Virginia Department of Health Professions.
No one should be victimized by the system after taking the personal risk to report a therapist for a potential violation.
I filed a complaint on September 7, 2020 and today it’s February 2, 2022. There’s no end in sight to my waiting for resolution.
The longer it takes the more concerned I am that if nothing comes of all this, I will lose faith in my own perceptions and my belief in justice and accountability.
I honestly can't imagine what I will do if after all this waiting I find out that there will be no public record of my case and no action by the board. I'm genuinely terrified because I know with every day that passes, the damage intensifies.
The worst part in all of this is the shift from feeling empowered and hopeful in May 2021 when I first went public about my experiences in a blog post to the gut-wrenching despair I’m experiencing today knowing I will never receive proper closure.
I blame myself for causing my own suffering and I regret everything. I regret filing the complaint, talking with the investigator, compiling the evidence. None of this was worth the harm that it's caused me.
I initially believed I was doing this to protect others and to have my concerns validated, but I've been tortured by the never-ending anxiety, doubts, and guilt for bothering VDHP staff with all my questions and concerns. I made a huge mistake and I need this to stop.
There are 300 open cases right now. I am just one of them.
If you or someone you know is suicidal or in emotional distress: